Monday 6 April 2009

Stain




April 2, 2009, it was the night I have been waiting for months. It was the most exciting night in my entire Sophomore year, probably the most nernous too.
It was the night of our English Play Contest, and I, as a Sophomore, play as the main character for the drama.

The pressure upon me for the entire March was unimaginable. Nearly everyngight I had to practice for it, even weekends too. During those days, Every day all I could think about was how to act well, how to pose my body when speaking, and how to convey my emotion to the audience through the tone. To make the play better, I had sacrificed a lot, two weeks of the Restoration reading, the weekends to go home, and many others, because I could hardly focus thinking about things besides the play. The lines and the poses had occupied my mind all the time. When I took a shower, I would totally forget how long I had been there until the wrinkles appeared on my fingers. Also, I could not concentrate on my study for whenever I finished a paragraph, my mind would forthwith start idling to the acting. How to walk like and talk like even stand like a professor became my everyday study topics.

Finally, the show was over now.
Moreover, I won a Best Actor for myself.
Those are really memorable days!

Saturday 4 April 2009

The Unbearable Lightness of Being

The Unbearable lightness of being lies in the deguise of ignorance.

Knowing that today is your birthday but no one else remember it.

If your brother you haven't seen for a long long time came to see you on that speicific day, you certainly would anticipate that he was coming to celebrate your birthday.

However, when you find out that he just coincidently came back on that day, not for your birthday, how sharp and strong emotion of disappointment you may feel.

To aggravate the situation, you have to hide your strong feeling of disappointment in the convesation just when you find out he was totally ignorant of your birthday.

You have to pretend like nothing happened. You have to deguise your feeling in front of him.

The lightness of your surface is exact the unbearable lightness of being.

Stupide!!!

How can I forget about her birthday?!
What a dumb ass I am!
She must have been anticipating my presents when she found out I was back.
Though she seemed like she was totally ignorant about her birthday, I know she still care about it.
How disappointed she might feel after she knew I really forgot about it!

Oh god, how can I be such a careless selfish brother!

Wish I can find a way to compensate her.
Dame!!!